To Rami with all my consoledence…..
First of all , i was planning to have an overall changing in my blog by the begining of this new year ; theme , colors & pictures but seems that i have no time actually to test these changes on my blog last days & thats why i have blocked my blog permanently lateley ….thanks for whom who asked by e-mail really 🙂
Ok so …..
you are wondering for sure whats up ?? whos Rami ?!! consoledence !!! ha !!
Ok the story begins at 2-12-2010, when i came to day shift that day i was responsible for a muslim Romanian female patient named : Margaretta , she was admitted to our unit as a case of septic shock ( a complex condition which has many causes and symptoms but mainly severe decreased in blood pressure & increased tempreture occur and other things ) she was also known to have an autoimmune disease previousely called : SLE (Systemic lupus erythematosus) , she was adorable lovely lady really .
The day before (1-12-2010 ) she was putted on mechanical ventilator ( a machine that supports the patient to breathe correctly ) because she was unable to breathe , she stabilized all the night shift & was in a good state .
The next morning day ( which i was responsible for her ) she was really really in a bad condition the minute i started my shift ; having an accelerated heart beats ( 170 ) and developed to SVT ( supraventricular taccycardia ) managed quickly by medications ….. by the end of that day shift at 19 pm i was completely exausted , no launch , nothing ….just standing there for almost 13 hours working here & there with doctors ; samples withdrawal , intiating a couples of medications by infusion to raise the blood pressure & sedation to keep her sleepy and comfortable all the time , administering an intravenous line ( dialysis line ) to start a dialysis ( 3’aseel kelah ) because her kidneys were partially disabled to work properly ………
through these 17 days untill yesterday , i was most of the shifts responsible for this patient , through all these days her two sons never ever leaved her for seconds , one of them called :Rami who was a graduated doctor working at a hospital & the other was Ameer who was still a medicine student , i saw a lot of people who care about each other , but in this way never ever ; clean her eyes , ensure that she is comfortable 100% , insisting (very very politely ) to help us in changing and cleaning her bed sores ( taqaro7at b el jeld ) , applying her a multiple of creams to her skin ……all of us wondered : what she have done in her life to her kids ?!!! oh GOD unbelievable !!!
Her husband told me that they have a 3 sons , all of them are doctors , she was ( after GOD ofcourse ) the reason of whom they are today , she was a dedicated , faithful, loving mom . yesterday night i was the incharge of her ,she was in a very deteriorated state since admission and started in the process of dieing since morning , so doctor has told her family that they should expect her death within couples of hours , so they decided to tell her family in Romania and her third son who also studying now at Romania , they new that her state was in last stages as she developed a multisystem failure ; her liver , kidneys , lungs and has no response without any sedation …..they accepeted the situation as they really do what they can do & we have done what we can also .
she died at 6,15 am yesterday morning , Allah yer7am-ha o ye7sen 2eleha , on friday ( which is a good day as our prophet mohammed (PBUH) told us that anyone die this day means that he is a good person with a good ending ) , we worked with her an active CPR ( 2en3ash qalbee) but with no signs of life & announcement of death was recorded …her husband called Rami and told him to came ….i get out from her room because i don’t want to be there seeing him crying badly , as drops falls down from my eyes i moved away leaving her two sons crying like baby beside her and kissing her hands silently ….
Moms are angels , its just soo difficult!!! i lived with them every single moment , i kept asking about her even when i was at home ….its just difficult to see a patient since the first day how he/she was & how she/ he looks like the last day when they die ….seeing his/her life collapsed slowley …..u know the difficulty came when you know about him/ her these tiny details about the person of whom he/ she was in life , you touch how he/she is important to thier family really ….these
tiny details affect you yessss !!!!
sometimes i thank GOD that not all the cases touches us as a human being in away or another , imagine every single case as a doctor or a nurse touches you ?!!! for sure you will never ever be able to work …BUT remember that there should be some exceptions in your carrier ; some cases that touches you deeply & you will never forget , its just a reminder for you , medical staff, to remember that they are human beings between your hands, precious , dear to some one as your beloved ones are to you exactly …its a reminder for you to know that there will be some day you will be in her/ him shoes ….
Things that i will never forget is : her sudden blinking eyes opening and closing i think it was the moment her soils get off her body ( she never opened or closed her eyes before ) …. her two sons’ compassion & mercy to her ….her beautiful rounded white face with a pink cheeks at the first day she came …..
الله يرحمها ويحسن إليها ….أمــــين يا رب العالمين
Moms are angels …..may Allah protect them & blessed them